my real obsession

i dont care what people want to call me. a freak, maniac, lunatic or whatever. i just wont stop being obsessed with Cho Hakkai from Saiyuki eversince i watched it when i was in standard 5 or 6 while i was in primary school. and i just realised that most of the characters from the anime that i watched are somehow quite similar to him. tall, calm&quiet but sometimes evil, brainy, mysterious and the most important point is wears a spectacle. Thats the moe factor ok!



and he also influenced my crushes. (^~^)' because i just realised that all of them wore specs. oh well, cerita lama anyway~ hahahaha...ha..

obsessed. i am. i know. his blood type=AB. just like mine. and just like another anime character that i LOVE so much- Ootori Kyouya from ouran highschool host club. AB type people are usually the alter-ego type, according to an episode in ouran highschool host club.

Hakkai is a very calm guy on the outside and it's hard to know what's inside his mind, how he felt and all. just like Kyouya. he has a pet dragon named Hakuryuu. a very cute white dragon that can transforms into a Jeep.

i like it when he fights with the bad guy. he usually calm and smiles when he is fighting. i still remember there this one episode when he faught this bad guy and he said with a smile, "dont worry, i'll go easy on you," as he broke that guy's arm.

but one thing. i hate his so called dead girlfriend/sister, Kaanan. i hate her like seriously. how about Yaone? his friend/enemy at the same time. they're enemies but they respect each other and man.. its just weird... i do like her though. purple. :D but Hakkai is mine!

I still remember the time when they showed the last episode of Gensoumaden Saiyuki on AXN, and Animax. it sounds silly but, i cried everytime i watch the last episode. reason: coz i'll miss him soo much. although they will repeat the show like a month or so later. i even cried when i watched the encore telecast 3 in the morning. i woke up early just to watch it again although i've watched it the day before.

and there's no wonder why i kept on refusing on being anyone's girlfriend or whatever last time. i was in love with him. and i am still now. hehe. well, i wanted to focus on my studies too last time. well now im introducing you Ootori Kyouya. he does resembles Cho Hakkai isnt he? specky, tall, calm, quiet but evil and AB type. he is also known as the Shadow King. a brilliant student in Ouran high. all he thinks about is profit and he does thing mostly when it has merits for him. but he's actually a very sweet guy although he acts like an egoist. the dark side

although he has a die hard admire-Renge, but i like it if he's with her. its like a perfect match. He's the quiet and preserve guy but Renge is the hyper active, loud otaku girl. cute isnt it

Cho Hakkai. I love him no matter what. kyouya too~ o(^v^)o

:D happy

its not really a day in rumah nur salam but boleh la kata. 10-2pm mcm tu kan. it was christmas day. and we, as malaysian of course celebrate it too! fun! fun! fun! playing games, and giving them presents! i was with Shamin, Tira, Ee Lynn-a friend from Malaysian Nature Society and her friends.thi boy was whispering something to Ee Lynn. this one is before their snack time. and there were lotsa snacks for them. this girl. uh-oh... i forgot her name. she's really cute. she salam me lotsa times. and you see the season's box that she's holding tu, she made it as a muppet yang ada mouth je. and the muppet ate my hand!!

me, shamin and the kids. hehehehe. its school holidays and of course its all about playing! they're kids. duh~ :D

the one in red shirt is Ee Lynn. the head of programme. the one in pink shirt is Rumah Nur Salam's daddy. he's really good with children although he is still young. seriously. he's like the mom and dad for the kids. the kids love him sooo much! he's strict but at the same time he jokes around with them too.

this is athirah. being pulled by 2 girls there. she's like little girls magnet.



shamin on the other hand, surrounded by the little boys. well, boys do love her~~~ hehe. not only the little ones~ XD

me, some little girls came to me and manja2 with me and the boys came to me and wanna play kick boxing with me. maybe they could sense that i love martial arts. =.='' but most of the time i was busy recording or taking photos.

we played games!! fun!!! the musical chair, and then the freeze-when-the-music-stops game. me and the others were the refree of that freeze game. as seen on the photo above, they had to dance and then when the music stops, the had to stop, and freeze.

musical chairs. this one is the below 12 category if im not mistaken.

and lastly i wanna say thanks to Ee Lynn for inviting my friends and i to this event.

and not to forget, my 2 BFFs, shamin tira. if you guys were not with me in Tesco la, i dont know how am i gonna manage 2 trolleys there. thanks!!!

new year and the azam awal muharram~

happy awal muharram/new year.

my final exam had just finished yesterday! yeah, yesterday la since right now is 1.26 am...
do pray for my success! i've done everything and now, just leave it to Allah la~.. tawakal.

ok. so. for the new year. mesti ada azam tahun baru kan?? me?? mmm... i've never had any resolutions before. but for this new year, i have! coz i'll turn 20. god... 20... how fast the time past by......

the azams:

1. be a better muslimah. kuatkan iman. and maintain. hu... easier to be said than doing it... seriously. yeah, i know im a bad girl...

2. be the best daughter ever to my beloved parents and a wonderful sister to my big sis. but obviously i wont tolerate with her boyfren. thats a NO WAY! she's not even married to him yet. so... basically, the probability of him not being my bro-in-law is 1/2. right? oh come on. im not that evil. its just reality and probability. (i hate probability topic in math although i love math)

3. go to japan and be among the best student there. hopefully. i must study hard there. if i pass this examination, i could go to japan. but if not... have to say gudbye to my life long dream la.

4. doing more volunteering activities. now that i have more time than ever, i shoul be doing more volunteering activities like i planned when i was in high school.

5. support sauber F1 team and lotus F1 team. well, its kinda hard to divide your love when you are already supporting sauber like for.... i cant remember since when. but lotus is almost purely malaysian. so, i must support it! demi malaysia!

6. study hard so that i could be an F1 engineer or an engineer that has anything to do with cars. especially aerodynamics. and also environmental. i wanna contribute in making a very good Malaysian car so that Malaysians can be proud of it. and no longer saying that the national car is teruk la apa la and all. that's what i've said during my interview with the JPA 2 years ago, and that's what im working hard for.

7. become the good example for my lil cuzins so that they would be better than i am. i hope that when i become successfull one day, they will say that it is not impossible to achieve their own dreams.

8. i wanna finish the 2 novels that i bought 2 years ago. i mean, i havent got the time to even open it. so, these two weeks of break, gonna have my book revenge!!!

9. i want to read more encyclopedias. i need more informations! and i think i wanna read maps too! -the world map. oh. and gonna watch more of channel 551-555

10. and lastly, i want to live a healthier lifestyle. makan ikut time, and exercise, now that i have more time~ hehehe!

all the best ok, cik ili!

a day with malaysian nature society o(^-^)o

my first time as a volunteer for MNS. it was soo much fun!!!
i love kids, so... it was really fun! hehe!
there were about 50 children i think... and the 1st activity was nature walk. the 1st group went into there first and the 2nd group were doing the guessing game. (argh! forgot whats the name of it!) it was fun listening to what the children thoughts. seriously. the children need to be blindfolded, then they have to guess what's the thing that they have picked from the bag of mysteries. the things that were inside that bag were like loofa, moose plush toy, tiger puppet, takraw ball, a puzzle made from rattan, spinning top from bamboo and seed and many more. their guesses were omoshiroi!

the third activity was painting using toothbrush and hair comb. it was fun watching them spraying/sprinkling the paint onto the artblock. the stensils were the leaves and anything that they collected from the nature walk before that.

and while the kids were doing their artwork, i was busy hiding the caterpillars. the paper spring caterpillars were made day by day as i went back from class. heheh! no wonder the japanese take origami as a way to release stress. it worked! haha! well, after a long day in class, a break from books is good what...
unfortunately, the special green and the green caterpillars were inside my bag! i placed them inside a plastic bag, and i put it inside my bag. then, the green ones must have came out from the plastic bag la. so... they were inside my bag and thats why the kids couldn't find them. there were many caterpillars to be hide so i couldnt really remember whether i've took the green one or not... zannen..
and when i came back to my room at 12th college, there are 4 more yellowish brown caterpillars! i left them here somehow... zannen deshou?? waza waza tsukuttan dakedo...
so, that's the reason why the children couldnt find the special green one........ (T^T)

after the hunt, the children took their masterpieces and Ee Lynn, the organizer gave them stickers! i got them too. and i got safari chocolates too! Thanks Ee Lynn! arigatou!

then, i went back home. shower, then opened my japanese grammar level 2 and level 1 and studied for the exam on sunday.

the exam... level 1... of course it was really hard. even my malaysian senseikata took them and said there were some kanji that they didnt know. level 2 was like the usual~ just like the exercise that sensei gave us la.

shuuryoushiken is starting on next monday. starting with butsuri (physics)and kagaku (chemistry)... tsurai kedo, gamanshinakerebanarakya! saishou wa tsurai kedo daijoubu da yo!

got to read butsuri kyokasho (physics textbook) again n again n again. thats what sensei always tells us.

i hope i wont be careless during the exam. wish me luck~!


名工に入れるように頑張ろう。最後の1秒まで頑張る!

i love this song!!!! zee avi best!

sun rays come down
as when it hit the ground
children spinning around
till they fall down down down

ive wait for you
its been two hours now
you're still somewhere in town
your dinners getting cold

i rest my case
you are always this late
and you know how much i hate
waiting around 'round 'round

bitter heart, bitter heart
is trying to keep it all inside
bitter heart bitter heart
shadows will try help you to hide
bitter heart my bitter heart
is getting just a little fragile
bitter heart, bitter heart of mine~

and then you come
and tell me the same reason
as you did yesterday
so tell me whats her name

im quite hyper as i finally got my large, no cream Ultimate-extreme. best!!! da la i had chicken cordon bleu just now kat secret recipe kat Jaya One!! best!! i love coffee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i love Coffee Beans & Tea Leaf!!! CB rocks!

go away

this feeling that i have, please go away. i dont want it anymore. i dont want it anymore. i dont want it anymore. let me be empty. let me be. and i hate you for making me feel this way again about you. urgh!!!!!!! this is just so confusing. and there's the rebound. haih.... and then, back to you again. please la! this is so not me. kot. or it is me.

loyal sangat lah ek? go away. this feelings, go away. tanak!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! serabut la. and why must it be you out of all people?! i mean not in the bad way ke ape la kan. but this spoiled brat, feelingless, no emotions, n tall person ni jugak......... *sigh*

take out a cellotape, tampal kat dinding. nthen can you expect that a sheet of paper boleh melekat kat dinding if side sebelah die tu bukan mcm double sided tape, ada boleh lekat dua2 side pn.?

EJU-done and over with

alhamdulillah.

everything smooth je sepanjang EJU (entrance for japanese universities) exam just now. the whole day~.. we all reached KDU-kolej damansara utama- about 8 am. then the 1st paper, japanese language started at 9.00.

then, at 12.30, it was science paper-physics and chemistry-. it was damn hard! now im doubting that the past years papers that we did as tests were really the past years papers. seriously. chemistry- the subject that you could actually get high marks, susah nak mati. same goes for physics. rasa nak nangis jawab soalan... gile r..


then, the last paper... math. began at 2.30... sama je... the first page, sume leh jawab la, alhamdullilah. the second page... omg... i kept on re-doing that question. kira balik byk kali still cudnt get the answer. same goes for some of the questions at the back... adoi...

so this is the real EJU... damn hard. oh well, ive tried my best, berusaha dah sume, tawakal saje kat Allah. insyaallah lulus sume orang, my batch sume org leh fly ke jepun~ amiin!